I have watched a pretty good drama recommended by a pretty nice friend (pretty and nice, haha), Si Yun.

It's 1 litre of tears. Rather than crying for Kidou Aya, I am proud of her that she managed to live her life so bravely. I hope that in days, months or even years to come, I'll be able to find what I am actually searching for, for now I really have no clue, just randomly playing my jigsaw puzzle without a starting point. Nevertheless, I am actually placing the pieces together which may in the end lead to the complete puzzle. Why a long way? You may ask me. There is no right or wrong for taking a shorter or a longer path, since it's down to the individual to decide what is necessary for them. Is it the goal in the end that you are seeking for, the path which you passed that makes it meaningful, or it's both that brings you experiences and achievement? I don't wanna comment about it, every individual is special and thinks differently.

The meaning I received from this story is that no one should think that god is unfair to them, it might just be a blessing in disguise. For this case, Aya understood that the people around her are true to her and it makes me feel good for her even though she had to leave this world at such a young age.

Thank you for the nice story, for I truly appreciate it, and I believe in every single small detail in my life that will make me a different person, truly a better one each time.

Dunno how come today I suddenly feel so lonely..

Yesterday was a really great day for me, since I got permanent job status and a little increment but I don't feel really happy about it.

I guess the problem with me is that I am too impulsive (or should I say desperate) to have a relationship, that's why I scare girls away.. I don't really have high standards, since I am no standard at all to start with.

Mum says I should cope with work and studies first but I do feel that if the right one comes, I wanna put in my effort to love and care for her.

Argh.... My knee hurts... Always been like this these few days, how am I gonna play the company soccer match? =(

Things to achieve in years to come:
First step - to get a degree and to establish a career at the same time. (just try to do well for these, the rest will come into the picture)
Second step - haven really think of it yet but really wanna see more of the world, maybe in 3 years time.

One thing for sure, my pay not high, therefore to think about other things such as investments or even buying certain things will have to wait quite long. And I think that I am the type who spends on items that are not necessary in the first place. Wat to do, comic is one of my hobbies and I love to read them. Actually I spend more on food and other stuff, such as buying pc stuff or gaming accessories, and not using them for the right purposes.

What I really want in life?

Firstly, my interest is in the Engineering field, therefore goal in life will be closely related to my interest. First thing to do is to become a knowledgeable engineer in the working society. It's not easy and I am always easily distracted. Trying to keep in the course of where I am heading.

Next, family stuff.. Mum and Dad have worked well long enough and I guess someday I will eventually hold the responsibility to take care of them, financially I suppose, which is why I am concerned about how well or bad I am being paid.

The problem now is to settle for the semester bills when the application for studies eventually approved. Hope by then I can seek for partial loan from bank, that way wun be so shiong.

Good thing is I am going to be a permanent staff in this company and there will be a bit increment. Hopefully will be able to save more and pay off whatever is essential..

Worries, worries and more worries... That's me, thinking abt the future but in the end I feel more troubled abt it. Luckily I got my bro to support me when he graduate at the year of 2014, i suppose, after 2 yr national service and 4 yr uni study...

Down with cold and fever since yesterday, suffering in office yesterday with flu and was too tired from work even though I din do much work actually. Slept in the bus all the way till I reach Queenstown MRT stop. On the way home, I wanna go to the clinic yesterday already but it wasn't open. So have to go polyclinic today.

Went to the clinic at 0830 hrs, the waiting time is kind of long, only at 10 plus then can go. Took breakfast and medication and some rest, feeling better already. It's been a few years since I last go to the clinic, the clinic has been renovated and looks newer and tidier than its previous old look.

Nothing much to blog today, just rested in the day and so fast it's night again. 2 more days and I am off to 4th, 7th and 8th aunts' hse, feeling excited but haven change currency yet, will ask mum to help me with it since I nvr change currency before as often as her, she might be able to find good rates.

I dunno lar, just wanna update this blog once in a while, perhaps me too lazy liao...

Just changed from full time application to part time application for SIM studies, partly due to my 2 pals oso going to study part time too, dunno whether can go into same class or not. Maybe can get to know more frens if I am able to get in. Hopefully can know people from good company and intro me to their company scope so I can see whether the job scope is interesting or not.

Cannot buy my bike for now, school fees gonna cost me a bomb and it will all come from what I earn, not enuf for other commitments, sad to say that..

Process Engineering to me is somewhat challenging and hard if I wanna be a good one. Shows I am trying, not very hard I guess, haha.. Partly is cos there is too much for me to learn, as well as doing it. Perfection is not easy, that's the main reason.

Sriram, my lead engineer, is a good and patient supervisor, and hope that there is more that he will eventually impart to me, for he has much more knowledge and experience in this field than me. All the best if I can do well. Now that I have applied for studies, hope I can get in and be able to cope between work and studies.

Well, I will expect a lot more coming out of myself and if everything is smooth sailing, I would like to continue my career as an Engineer or in the engineering field. That's it for now, the planning is already in place, roads will be set, although rough, I will move on. ^^

Today went to take a look at the bike shop at woodlands, seems not very well.

On the way home I saw a bike shop at bukit batok there, maybe try and take a look there. Perhaps can find the one I like..

Hope it's a happy ending..

Peeps, it's Friday again~~!!

Already got plans to slot in my wkend, Saturday night to gather with buddies for dinner and anything they like. At first going to play badminton with a friend on Sat but she busy with her report writing so looking forward to have a game with her.

Nth much to add in the blog, just write sth to fill in the spaces, haha.

Later going to Weng Wei's place there to take a look at the bikes, hope to get what I like, most importantly is that they provide delivery cos I don't wanna ride a bike back from Woodlands!!!

Looking forward to go to 4th Aunt's house on Good Friday, already request for leave and my manager approve quite fast, abt a few mins after I applied. Haha.. Go there relax and enjoy nice food sia..

It's been quite some time since I blogged the previous time.

Yesterday went out with Weng Wei to search for a nice bike but went to a very expensive bike shop, ai yoo... $17,000 for a bike, will you buy if you go? ^^

But the frame is so light, and wheels are those racer kind, so cannot blame for the price, for it's a very exquisite model. So bought nth in the end, den we went to look for a place for pool. Went to Queenstown de but I think it has been closed down for quite some time. It was Weng Wei's fav pool hangout place during poly days since the price is good. Must be during his NS times he din go and made it shut down le. Haha...

In the end we went to Clementi K Box to sing a couple of hours, open Jay concert, haha.. Mostly Jay's songs, since most of the Jay's songs I pick de... I had a great time..

Thanks Weng Wei!

From today onwards, I am a permanent staff and I shall strive to gain knowledge, experiences and earn lots of money so that I can lift off the worries from mummy. ^^